ape larh salahku sampai ku disiksa sebegini? chey.. mcm paham larh.. seriously aku malas sebenarnyer nk update.. tapi since korg slalu pester uroh update2 nie kan.. ok here it goes..

im here typin my way wif a blank mind..haha well..im no longer werkin.. searchin fer a job now.. yeap.. dah tkle tahan keje tmpt tu.. eee.. sumpah tk menyesal berenti.. so far ive been clean up my room.. the progress is slow.. but its movin thou.. maner tk.. dah kemas section a, letak kat section b.. bey kemas section b, letak kat section a.. tk game ah gini..haha!! aniwaes.. dis wkendnyer mlc kat daerah uma aku dok!! woohoo!!! sumpah aku angun lmbtnyer..waakaka!! cian korg yg tngl west-syd ekh.. kekeke..haha.. cant wait for mlc man..haha...

aniwaes..i have loads of plans for myself.. n the list is never ending.. mcm maner aku tk melekat kat uma?? haha.. giler kan? plan uat tu larh.. uat ini larh.. hish.. GILER!! BETOL2 GILER!! nk tau uat aper?

Orytez!! im bek.. i noe i mcm biskot kan.. kejap ader kejap tkder.. all coz of my werk larh..dang - it! busier den a bee.. haiyoo.. well now i wont be soo much as im oni left wif 7 moe days!! haha!! cant wait.. my countdown till im officially outta dat place.. wootz!! haha.. super duper crazy.. well yesterday went to the underwater world wif my kids.. so.. ill upload it later on..not nw.. malas larh.. aniwaes.. things have reali been great for mie.. dono why i felt so much better maybe because ive no more sore throats.. no more phlegms..no cough..hehek.. felt healthier.. my period is bek.. lucky mie.. if not im gonna worry again..haha.. still thinkin if i wanna go surgery of not.. but the feeling is lyk i wanna do it larh..still thinkin thou..haha..hmm..wat else..

ouh..dun ferget.. i wanna blog abt my baba..hehek.. wanna thank him soo much for understanding me despite the fact that he belitih at my ear abt dis n dat.. gud advise thou..tnx dear..his mom for helpin me find a job n his bro for the future belanja later on..klu jadi..tk sure lagi but please!! nak tauw!! hehek.. (tk malu btol!)..

here comes the random part.. suddenly klua dgn my bestie 2 hari straite..lyk wth..haha

i tink my hips are gettin bigger..omg.. cant wait to clean up my room..been thinkin of it moe den 1 mnh ago.. cant wait to go out shopping.. cant wait for cuzzies gathering.. cant to start cookin.. cant wait to have FUN FUN FUN!!

IM GOIN CRAZY!! REALLY I AM!! I JUST WANNA SMILE ALL THE WAY!! MY HEART IS SMILIN NOW.......HHHHEEEEEEE

rytie..managed to sneak a few mins of my tired tym bloggin to update..DUH!! tmr is childrens day.. n ive yet to still fill in a few moe childrens day gift fer dem.. haiyoo.. nvm.. loads of thangs to be done at my checklist.. well..its only temporary..haha.. pening kepale aku tauw nie mcm.. been in the 'Saya Bodoh Tuan!' day foe abt 2 days nw.. been fergettin to wear my sandal before goin home..n today reali i wear my slipper bek home..imagine dat.. ade ker sandal aku trtinggal kat skola? giler kan aku?? haiyoo..nvm..aniwaes.. dese few daes been bad.. maybe coz i miss my baba..hehe..he said i wont get well until i meet him..entah larh btol ker tk.. but my body temp still panas..heaty larh.. dono y..den i made quite alot of mistakes as in..forget to do dis larh dat larh..haiyoo!! fieza!! ward telah happen to uuuu??? pms ker?? mmg pongz..haha.. penat.. aket.. ergh.. doakn aku baek by tmr pleash!! im ok wif my kids.. suare aku mangken mcm jantan larh sey!! haha!! asek trpekik2 jer kat budak2 tu..hish.. i wan my old voice bek!! i cant sing lyk dis.. nyanyi lagu amok jer larh yer..haha!!

aniwaes..im starting my mlc dis sundae bek..if im nt rong.. dono y i felt lyk i cant wait to werk wif shasha but..entah larh..rase mcm dah lame tk keje dgn dier kan.. mcm ader rindu dier jgak larh..haha.. giler gaknyer aku.. n i mite nt be able to tell her off but aku rase mcm dier semakin lawa gitu?? entah.. SERIOUSLY FIEZA DAH GILER. HMMPH! ok.. aniwaes i hope mlc is not lyk the last tym..the time dat i nvr werk..hope its better..insyaallah.. jgn aku perasaan bodoh sudah.. dah lamer rasenyer tk keje..kakaka!! ryte.. cant blog dat long coz i reali wanna do my list..finish it if possible.. aku lapar!! nak makan!! WHERE IS MY NASI!!! HUAK3!!

adios ppl..taking care..bubbye

huak huak huak huak huak!! am happie maan.. seriously!! after such a dreadfully nong nongnongnong tyme!! I GOT A JOB!!! woohooo!!! salvation!! this calls for a celebration!! PAR-TAYY!! woohoo!! n yes u mae be wonderin wat kinda job i got myself into now.. u mae laugh u may cry u may roll on the ground non- stop but wadever..im still tellin.. the 1st prsn i told oreadi laughed at me..how dare she! luckily she's my sister kae.. grr.. ryte.. here it is.. Fuuuhhh!!! im a teacher at al-iman kindergartens....... YA I NOE RYTE!! A TEACHER??!! u must be kidding me ryte?? haha!! i dont.. n i am not.. so.. yeap..will be startin werk dis comin tuesdae on the 4th..hehe.. nervous yeap..haha..gotta clear my room now!! seriously!! my bro's room still abt halfwae done.. gotta fasten my pace now.. nvm.. tmr i can still afford to relax coz tmr im gon bowl..hee..after dat gotta reali clean2 n clear2..yeap.. pls tell me i get the rajin mood if not ltr difficult larh.. haha..aniwaes..
Went out wif my belurved baba after dat.. was reali cravin for popeyes biscuit n mashies.. so went to changi airport.. reached den went to t1 at 1st.. gotta noe no more biscuits n mashies..waa..i angry oreadi..den we went to the t3 wan la tinkin dere hopefully got..DUN HAV OSO!! not available!! dey funny or farnie!! waa..damn i super angry oready..i am oready super hungry..no biscuit not even a mashie..WTH?? kept naggin to baba..haha!! so sad.. tk besalah sey member.. den terpakse g carik tmpt laen..end up went to beach rd..haha..ayam penyet ler ape lagi..waa..niceeee..i loikee..yum2..den i tink we went to mustafa centre(sort off our fav shoppin place..dono why..fani ryte??kekeke)..shop a few stuff den we head our wae to labrador park.. din believe dat it was quite a beautiful scenery dere..really..better den pasir ris park,east coast or wadever.. din reali walk coz i was tired so we seated..enjoy the view..the breeze the ships passin by..realli embracing the moment larh..long tyme nvr go dis kinda place.. n den we headed home..at the end of the day.. i was really smilin frm ear to ear..miss dose times..haish..i love my sayang..very very much.yes.=))

ye ryte..ive not been bloggin despite the fact dat im on the com lyk everyday! haha.. lazy i noe.. been coverin my fast bek before the real fastin season came..haha..aniwaes.. its true dese past few daes.. or shuld i sae mnths.. ive been pretty crazy..my mind is crazy.. my body is crazy.. everiting abt me is crazy.. been super worried abt everiting even the smallest thang.. cant believe dat? neither do i. but it did.. yeah.. been on n still is(still recoverin) on this term called stress n depressed. u mae think stayin at home is not depressing but be in my shoes for just one day n u'll be leavin out of dis house in no time. its lyk hell i tell you.. aniwaes.. its more abt my personality n thinkin dat i wanna emphasise today.

i realise the fact dat ive been feelin down not thinkin straite n bla3.. but ive came up to this. im not hatin ppl coz of where dey r frm bt its hu dey are turnin into..i mean.. not specifically no but some ppl change..everyone changes ryte.. well i can say im startin to not able to tolerate bitchy ppl.. nosy ppl n irritating ppl.. i use to be able to tolerate but my patience lvl aint dere animoe man..so sorry.. dun get in my way.. dats all..n i'll keep my bloody mouth shut. get in my way..ure surely messin wif me..n i mean business..i aint gona keep my mouth shut animore. i wouldnt wana be the gurl hu keeps all her hatred to herself nimoe.. she gon spit it out ryte at ur face.. beat it. she aint remain quiet nimoe.. dats the only way to get to the top man.. to play dirty.. u played dirty.. now get a taste of it back sucker. i may be nice but sad to say u cant step on my head animoe. i aint hu i used to be. ive had enuf. i can think for myself nw. thank you. i dont need anyone lyk u animoe.n i can jollywell survive w/o sumone lyk u in my life. seriously. and if you think i hate that certain person. i dont.. not really no. dey are still my fren after all..even dey din mess wif me.. dey noe how to take care of their own stuff. so try followin deir footsteps will you? dont let me tell u off straite to ur face dat i hate you? coz i dun care whether u'll cry or not. sorry but ive no mercy for anyone anymore. seems to be like that. hate me while you can but im gon hate you forever. trust me.

haish..hearin abt mlc..i dono..i mite be goin off sooner den u expected..maybe..it depends.. why stay when ppl dun trust u..get it? blind.for sure. pfft. whatever.moneys all dat matters. notin else.no.

fyi.ive been keepin secrets to myself coz i dun trust anyone anymore.fullstop.

i love you sayang.Mmuackx

Ryte.. here i go again.. the past few daes?? well..yest was zaq's bdae..which i din celebrate..soo sad.. but nvm.. accompanied her to lunch todae.. so yarh.. hmm.. wad happenned? ouh.. my last update i mention regarding the appmnt i had wif doc.. she said so far she cant detect aniting its juz dat my thyroid range tingy2 is a lil over.. so after 4 weeks frm las week *i think* go check up for scanning.. blood test n upt test again.. *SHIT MAN*.. i hate blood test.. it hurts 4 a few days oukae..aniwaes..yarh.. had to eat medicine.. doc said i cant get fat coz maybe due to the worn inside my stomach..haha n she recommended me to eat 'zentel'.. so bought it n ate it..haha.. n my stomach has never been much hungrier den ever..heh.. n i like the feeling where i stretched my stomach to fit in the foods.. cant believe i ate soo much.. i practically ate lyk.. 4 lunches in a day.. n i really mean lunch..*to me lunch is the food i ate the most during a day,not dinner*.. soo yarh.. enuf abt dat..lets move on..

let me tok abt...me 1st.. i realised dat ive been under pressure..personal pressure for countless days oready maybe even weeks.. been thinkin alot.. din wanna list it down.. penat nk type larh.. mainly is my house..room..future..work..penyakit..money.. loads more larh..haish.. it seems to me lyke i cant cope.. i mean..raagh.. its jus too diff for mie now..tried to be ignorant.. it works temp only.. but it does no good larh..soo.. lyke..haish..i dono larh..jobless agn.. so i have to work things out.. sort of relieved im finally at home.. can clean the house.. n i really NEED TO DO IT!! haiyoo..kept saein but never really do it u noe.. so bad..im so ashamed of myself.. my room, clean2 oso the same.. dirty..haish.. aniwaes..at home can relax abit..i guess..arrgh.. tknk bbl psl nie lagi larh..

now..my boyfie...hee.. tmr our 10th mnth annie..wow.. 10 mnth ekh.. a cheeky girl lyk me can tahan dat long ah? salute to my baba.. he really endure alot.. especially the past few mnths.. it seems dat im overly demanding.. overly moody.. mood-swings almost all the time.. haish.. i wonder myself..hehek.. i wonder HOW HE CAN TAHAN MAAN??!! his patience level is really tested to the core.. haish.. pity him.. despite all that he still loves me.. still thinkin of our future together..haish.. never gotten anyone lyke him before.. no wonder i cant stop thinkin of my future..*heee*.. aniwaes.. SAYANG..*seriously,its lyke me goin down to my knees..peliknyer rase dier* despite the pain that u had to go thru n much more.. i just wanna let u noe that I WILL NEVER LOVE ANYONE AS MUCH AS I LOVE YOU..TRUST ME. you have been there for me thru thick n thin.. n ive never had any bestfren as close as i do wif u.. u are my life.. my oxygen..my water,my food..ure practically my everything.. i cant seem to give u up to anything.. n i will never give u up to anything or anyone..i love you..and i seriously do...

*thank you for everything honey..i love you*

Ryte..i noe.. ive been super lazy despite the fact dat i frequently update my games.. but im quite lazy to update my blog dono why.. werk has been fun at times.. n boring at certain times.. been changing places n ppl.. werkin wif crazy backstabbers.. super duper crazy chicaz.. hot chinese dudes.. irrititating old aunties.. super kampong chinawomens.. BLA BLA BLA.. but overall.. its fun.. felt like home oready..haha..so far.. no worries.. nobody asked for my no. yeap..maybe i looked lyke an auntie?? (tanx fadhli)..grrr.. how dare he say i looked like sum 25 yrs old .... haiyoo!! soo evil!! nvm..nvm.. im cool.. aniwaes.. fyi ive had a check up today at kk.. dun ask why.. im scared kae!.. ill update if i tink i have to tell u guys.. if not.. haha.. wadever.. seriously..im lazy now.. shit have to iron my clothes.. haiyaa.. craving for keropok now.. KELOPOK!!! BUY ME A KELOPOK NOW!!

before i end dis.. i gotta sae.. yes.. its true ive been changing my attitude.. but look..its coz ive not settled down yet.. its juz at the time of the mnth n due to the stress lvl im handling..(dun bother asking..i dun wanna think abt it).. n the facts of life dat i have to come across upon.. n all sorts of things....yeah.. my mind is not in its ryte state.. trust me..i dun wanna yack longer.. so..

im gone